In the beginning of October I was feeling very scattered and un-grounded. I was questioning so many things (perhaps not in the most productive way). I was feeling my energy going to everyone and thing and not getting me very far in the process. The feeling of scarcity was uncomfortable, and making me feel resentful and frustrated. When I (we) are frustrated it is hard to create because all that negative energy is blocking me (us) from being our best selves.
Then, I received a text from my sweet friend Jenica. She had done some energy work for me in the past, and had a hunch I was needing a recharge. She gave me a few sweet words and ideas to try in order to help me back to feeling settled. Lucky me, I also had a second trick up my sleeve. A few days after talking with Jenica, I left for a weekend on Whidbey Island, Washington. I gathered with a house full of sweet woman whom I have grown to love and trust. We gathered, laughed, cried, ate, knit, shared and shared and shared, we ran and walked and marveled.
By Sunday morning, we all stood on the sand looking out, or rather, trying to look out to the water; not wanting to say our goodbyes. The fog blocked our view outward to the water and the mountain and the Seattle skyline, and the hill (where “our” house was nest into the earth and trees, blocked the view the other way. As I watched the ladies gather rocks and shells, photograph each other and laugh with one another, I wiggled my toes in the sand (that had lit up like the fourth of july sky, just 8 hours prior. Magical bio-luminescent sparkles danced on the shore like magic messages). It was then that I was suddenly felt this surge, this huge heavy wave, of being held. It wash over me- from my heart down to my toes. I finally (FINALLY) felt grounded and connected again. Connection with the Universe, to those immediately around me, and those that I have and will continue to share so many stories and life with from across the miles.
Have you ever had a quiet sweep over you like this? The quiet of the fog- which we normally give a negative connotation, was so needed and positive for me.
The remaining of October has been contemplative. It has been about creating art and stringing together words simply because I need to hear and see them, and not so much worrying about if it is anyone else does. It has been about cultivating connections off the screen. When I can’t be face to face with those I love, because so many of you are so far away- it has been about text messages and long email letters, and yes even some hand written letters with postage on the top right corner. October has been about slowing down and taking stock in my home and my relationships. I am removing what isn’t serving me and cultivating that which is and does. Conversing and reading and connecting so I remain rooted.
I hope this season has helped you find your quiet and your grounding. I hope this season has allowed for connection and conversations. Here are 5 images that reflect my current season and mood.
*This post is part of a larger project that I participate in with several other fantastic female photographers… So when you are done scrolling through my images here, please click over to Adriana’s post. And then follow the links in each of the following posts to the other blogs and to see what October held for the others.